Blessing From Above

So for those of you that really know me, you know that I have struggled with depression my entire life. For the past couple years, it has been pretty good. my depression has been something that I could control myself. The past few weeks have been really hard. I feel that Satan has been attacking me and my relationship with Flash continually with no rest. It has really taken a toll on me and my spirit.

Poor Flash has been putting up with it so well. Tonight we were able to sit down and really talk about it all for a good hour or so. He is such a great friend and example to me. He is a rock that I am thankful to have in my life through these hard times. He constantly tries to remind me that I am a child of God and how important I am. It's funny to think that I was raised all my life knowing that I am a child of God and he has only been taught for a couple months but yet he is the one that has to remind me...you know my brain. I am very blessed that Heavenly Father has literally put him in my life and in the lives of my family and friends. The example he is to us all is amazing and I don't have a problem saying that we are all better for knowing him and growing to truly love him. I know that even if I was not marrying him that the effect on my life he has had would still be great beyond measure.

Gordon is a blessing in my life and I pray that I can continue to remember that and strive to be more like him. He is there for me when I'm mad or frustrated. He is there for me when I scared and tired. He is there for me when I cry and feel the world is falling apart. He is even there when I freak out because I'm not in control of everything and when I struggle letting go of things and just trusting our Father in Heaven. I'm truly grateful to have him in my life.

Bikes, Water, Sun, Bananas and Oranges

Today, mom and I drove down to Waxahachie. We rode in the Cow Creek Country Classic bike race. It was so much fun! I rode a little over 10 miles. Mom rode and walked 10 miles and Flash and his best friend Stephen rode 36 miles. Mom and I woke up early and were out of the house at 4:30am. We were very early for the race. We met so many new, nice people. When we were done, the race had orange slices, bananas, cookies, water and gatorade for us at the finish line. They also had outside showers. Mom and I drenched out hair and it felt so good! I have a tan line from the ride but no burn, however, Flash is burned. Anyways, it was fun and I'm REALLY sleepy from being up all day. Goodnight to all. Sweet dreams.

Give us a 10 for Queen of Babble's Best Couple

Give us a 10 for Queen of Babble's Best Couple

Heavenly Date

Tonight Gordon took me to North Park for dinner. Before eating at PF Chang's we walked around the mall a little and coveted some items in the Mont Blanc store. Then the fabulous dinner. After dinner we put our food in the car and walked across the street. We went in the Container Store (I LOVE this store). He bought me a nice glass jar for pasta and I was so excited. Then onto Barnes & Nobles where we looked at books and went up and down the escalator...I think they are fun :) Then to the Cheesecake Factory where neither of us could finish our fabulous dessert. After running back across the street and being so full from all of the wonderful food we ate, I feel asleep while he drove home. I had so much fun! We talked and laughed so much.

Today's Surprise

So Gordon and I have been having a rough time lately. Satan has really been attacking us. Today was once again. I also had my first counseling session today with LDS Family Services. When I got home there were two cards, flowers and a bag of starbursts on my bed. This is the first time he has given me flowers. I love them so much! They are so cute.

The Flowers
The Package (now with a vase)
The Sexy Culprit (pretending to be asleep)

Falling Asleep

Last night I was ready to fall asleep by 8:00pm however I was out with one of my friends and then upon arriving home was asked to take my sister to a swim party. You may ask why she couldn't take herself...Mike had her car for the night but she wanted some time with her friends. It was midnight by the time we arrived home from that and it was way past my bedtime. After reading my scriptures and saying my prayers I texted Gordon to tell him goodnight and we started a very short conversation until I was smacked in the head. I had fallen asleep while texting him and my hand and phone fell right onto my head. I was promptly woken up and thought it was so funny I had to call and tell him all about it. Then satisfied to share my silliness, I fell soundly asleep.

Gordon's side of it

One November day, I was sitting in the at my work, a UNT computer lab, and walks in this pretty lady that I had seen and talked to a few times before. She was always nice to me, and I was drawn to her… little did I know that she would become my future wife. Throughout our flirting and talking about ceramics, she invited me to a friend's house to play cards and games. I agreed, which for the both of us was out of character, her usually not asking stranger's to be their "date", and for this guy to go to a party that he had no idea about. The evening turned into 3am, and I got to meet her mom for the first time… telling her it was time for her to come home, and giving me a look only a mother could. Reality set in that she was not ready to date yet and that I was not a member of the church. So, our brief stayed at that, just a brief encounter. I was in search of a faith, and she put her energy along with the missionaries, into teaching me the gospel. I took to it like a sponge, and on January 4 I was baptized. She gave the talk on baptism, and during this period she swore up and down not only to herself, but to many others that she would never date me. I was patient and gave Sarah her space, at one point seeking the counsel of one of the older and more respected people in our ward. He told me that I had spent too much time waiting for her, and to move on. I wanted to take his advice so bad. After all I was not a patient person, and yet I felt compelled to wait…. But for what? She had all but rejected me. People were telling me to stop waiting. But I had this urge to keep waiting…. And so I kept on, and one day in Sunday School, and later at a friends the spirit told her that dating me was ok, and that it was worth the risk. So we stated dating, and like a wildfire though are ward, was this, "I knew it", and, "Weren't you dating all along", and "Wow, now when is the ring going to be on her finger". I was ok with this, but my lovely companion was not. It all came to a head one evening when after a stressful day, came one too many engagement questions, and I could tell it was hurting us, but also stressing her out immensely. I asked if we could sit down then next day and talk. She said yes, and the next morning she came over and we talked for five hours about where we wanted to take our relationship. After spilling out my heart, we got on the same page and decided that we wanted to get married, and if the Lord agreed then, we would go forward with doing so. We both in our own separate ways went about getting our answers. I got mine that evening at our Stake Priesthood meeting, while Sarah got hers in two parts. One in opening her fast before FHE and her final confirmation at the temple while reading the scriptures (D&C 6:15-18 to be precise). Our relationship has grown immensely since the day we met, and will continue too. We will be married and sealed for time and all eternity on January 9, 2009, in the Dallas Texas Temple.

Sarah's Version...

Ok, we met at UNT. He works in the language lab and I work in the MacLab for the Journalism department. Last semester (Fall 07) we meet because I had two Spanish classes and was supposed to spend an hour in the lab each week. He caught my eye but I didn't do anything because I was dating someone else and it was really complicated with him. We walked through the building at the beginning of the semester (first week or two or school) and talked a little, found out that we were both dating someone. Even though we were both dating and I thought I was so happy, there was always something about him that drew me to him. In November, we started talking and I invited him to come hang out with some members. That was a Thursday night that I talked to him. He came to my lab when he got off work and we ended up spending the entire night together. I think that was the 29th of November. It was around 3am that we finally stopped talking and that is because my mom came looking for me. My phone was on silent and she was worried when I didn't answer after trying to call me three times. Later that weekend, I picked him up and he hung out with us. I was worried about it all and very uncomfortable. My ex ended up there and it was more than obvious that Gordon liked me. My ex and I just broke up and I felt very uncomfortable with it all. I invited Gordon to the first presidency message. That was Stake Conference weekend as well as a temple trip. After my session of stake conference I rushed to meet him near the square and we watched Loralyn's harp ensemble with Sheaunna. After that he came with me to Leah's and then to the stake center. (I think this is all in the right order. I have a horrible memory) I avoided him for a long time out of fear. I think something inside of me knew what good would come from our friendship and I think Satan knew as well. I was scared. He started investigating the church and I tried to push him farther but yet be helpful with his investigation. I know I was confusing him because I was confused myself. Gordon was baptized January 4th. January 18th we sat and talked and he made me dinner. I told him all of my issues, well 90% of them. It was something I have never done. I don't open up to people that well when it comes to my family and our past and what we went through. That Sunday the Lord made it clear that we needed to date. The rest was history. February 19th I was given a very strong confirmation that I needed to marry him. It was my second answer. The first was the day before when I opened my fast about marrying him. That second one previously mentioned was while I was reading my scriptures the 19th inside the temple.